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All Alone by loveless-lost, literature

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All Alone

A[aaaa]ll alone And that can't stop fee[e]ling Creeps over our heads, aga-ain… We a[a]re—torn The choices we make determine our fate and we just cant seem to see to the truth, aga-ain… We a[a]re--- Pull back my head And force me far down Its in this sea, I'm sure that I'll drown I'm feeling that loathe You're touching me so, I just can't let go And all that I know Is that gut wrenching, Soul pinching, Fear sensing, Sweat drenching Feat of this ni[i]ght--- And I try and I try With all of my might, To tell my self that I shouldn't fight, your lo-ove Aaand I can't let go.. But its when you touch me I know-ow… We a[a]re

Silly Girl by loveless-lost, literature

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Silly Girl

When all of everything fell about And the only sound was screams and shout I felt the earth, the quaking ground And to hell was where we all were bound Though this was what seemed to be This, was all my eyes could see A desperate, desolate lonely place Reflected when you saw my face Or maybe just deep in my eyes Where I found a place to hide my cries But then a stranger walked in the light On this remarkable lonely night I found myself staring, I couldn't resist— So hard to believe, we crossed paths and missed I feel it like a faint lit candle Sometimes it's just more than I can handle It's just a picturesque motif The timele

A Plea for Feeling Like This by loveless-lost, literature

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A Plea for Feeling Like This

My heart tries to escape its confines It pounds my ribs until they ache And all the care you've shown to me Diamonds can't amount in mines So don't be blind for my own sake And know that love, you're mine to be It's not a command darling, no way A simple request or urging plea Lead me to a fruit filled pond Where I may lap at every day Dearest I hope you soon shall see That its you I grow so fond And every night I lie awake Thinking about our every kiss Something different and oh so pure That only we could ever make My sweetest dreams and sinful bliss But, I've never been so sure. Belief in what is so unknown Something real

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Thinking about his smile, his face; Now just a glimpse makes my heart race The world spins at an ungodly pace And just a handshake formed a base. All the worlds on all the earth Couldn't describe my new feelings birth A twisted form of insanity Has suddenly taken grasp of me. But no, these crazy feelings hold Something completely random and bold Plunging in with no looks back Praying for all to be try, no acts Something, somewhere tells me so That there is something different here That this man is a friend, not a foe So now I know, I need not fear And how I wish I could tell him He took my breath away And naught a single tho

Built On Rocks by loveless-lost, literature

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Built On Rocks

In this town that's built on rocks the buildings crumble the skylights fall and buildings crumble the streets grow quiet the engines stop and streets grow quiet And all the people stop to stare the ground shakes and quakes And all the people halt and stare In this town that's built on rocks. In this town that's built on rocks rocky rocks strewn across sand slippery sand like sinking clay the sinking clay swallowed by earth commotion and quaking and shaking the ground the buildings crumble the skylights tumble and buildings crumble the streets grow quiet the buildings crumble atop the massive highways the buildings crumble

Aren't You Happy by loveless-lost, literature

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Aren't You Happy

In terms all my own I whisper what I think I say things and thoughts all my own and all you do is blink. Shocked? Are you shocked? I'm not so perfect, Your little girl's a whore. I think about it all the time, and want it even more. Pissed? Are you pissed? I'm not so nice, Your little girl's a bitch. All I do is hurt my friends, and put down all the rest. Happy? Aren't you happy? Can't you see what you've done? Assumed the worst, yet got the best. Doesn't this look dandy? In these terms all my own I whisper what I think. I say things and thoughts all my own and all you do is blink. 4-18-05

Shallow Pride by loveless-lost, literature

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Shallow Pride

Shallow Pride Dwell on our demise Breathe our last breaths No more Hand puppets we will not be We will not be your toys So dwell on our demise, Shallow Pride No more. And how our laughter will ring The empty halls will echo Your carcass will rot there forever It will be adorned, With the hungriest maggots. Our bloodstained daggers Will hide our guilt, Shelter us from the law Because Shallow Pride, No blood runs through those damned veins Because Shallow Pride, You have no heart, No soul, And a meaningless life. Filthy creature of Lucifer Leave our realm We hereby cast you Unto the tenth layer of insanity. Yet you d

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Je ne sais pas by loveless-lost, literature

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Je ne sais pas

In my resting place, that sanctuary I call home, memories of old flood my mind, memories I've never known. I don't know where they come from, I don't know what they mean, all I know is what they do, and only what I've seen. I've seen my body twitch and jump, it rejects a simiple touch, innnocent whores beware of me, I only control so much. Drenched with sweat, I lie awake, this awkward dream soon fades, memories of old flood my mind, but I cannot see his face. 8/24/05

Bittersweet Wonder by loveless-lost, literature

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Bittersweet Wonder

Though there's one I call my own, I cannot help but walk alone. This path it leads me left and right, the end is nowhere in my sight. I wander off so often, and I cannot always slap my hand. This curse that makes me go astray, I wish its thoughts would go away. These rants, they make me doubt my love; I see things different, I dream things of a person I could never charm, a person never by my arm. And even though I see the truth, I see the boring life of truth, I turn away for want of change. A needless, stupid want of change. And this poor sweet man that loves me so, Why, I pray that he shall never know, that while I know I

We Thank You by loveless-lost, literature

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We Thank You

In a thousand words, none could describe The thanks you deserve for your sacrifice. Fighting for our freedom, and standing for our rights; Liberty rests in your hands. Daughters and sons of our forefather's will: WE THANK YOU We thank you for your being there. For signing the papers, pledging our safety, and fighting for us. On our behalf you give up yourselves and so much more. Veterans of the Military we are proud. We look up to your courage. WE THANK YOU We thank you for your being there. We thank you for standing for our country and our rights. Be proud of yourselves, you are heroes; WE THANK YOU 11/10/05

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The Kiss by loveless-lost, literature

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The Kiss

There is a man, so gentile and kind, lucky am I to tell him he's mine. Swept away in my fairytale world, around his pinky am I twirled. Wrapped around me, his arms so tight, in this moment that feels so right. A freckle of time spent I and he, on a love that only we could see. That spark that grew into a flame, is spontaneous, wild and never tame. His lips so soft kidnap my heart kis kisses are of the kindly sort. It begins so slow, easy, and shy, I always seem to close my eyes. While they're shut I sometimes see a knight in armor smiling at me. And when its over Im breathless and quiet if thiss all i would eat, I surely coul

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Carousel by loveless-lost, literature

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Carousel

Turning, turning evermore humming me away Childish humor evermore causing my decay. Turning, turning evermore carny tunes of doom Gastly stillness evermore gentle sweeping gloom. Turning, turning evermore living, breathing death Laughter killing evermore slowly stopping breath. Turning, turning evermore carousel of life Happily after evermore ending all my strife. Turning, turning evermore dripping crimson drops Eccentric living nevermore forever beating stops. Turning, turning nevermore new life's gasping breath Childish humor evermore and evermore living deat

The Devil's Bride May Cry by loveless-lost, literature

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The Devil's Bride May Cry

Do you believe in the devil my friend? follow along and I'll tell you a story I'll tell you a tale of the horrible fiend... Do you believe in love? Be patient and I'll tell you a story I'll tell you a tale of a woman in love.... How she loved him, the one who was not She followed him round and bid his good tidings She kept him at bay... Foolish little girl... She made love to the devil Oh how she believed he'd change And she bore him a son... How she cries all alone in her bed He left her there all alone in her bed With her legs wide spread And her blood poured... so red ........................................... She wept f

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The Devil's Bride May Cry by loveless-lost, literature

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United States
Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Welsh, LA
Favourite genre of music: I like all music, just not certain songs
Operating System: Android
MP3 player of choice: Phone
Skin of choice: Mine... most of the time
Favourite cartoon character: Cosmo from Fairly Oddparents
Personal Quote: "You don't drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there."

Favourite Visual Artist

I've been into digital graphics lately, its hard to pinpoint one thing.

Favourite Movies

Anything animated

Favourite TV Shows

Warehouse 13, Scrubs, Law and Order: SVU, Any cartoons that were around during my childhood

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

RHCP, Go Granny Go, Lady Gaga, Brad Paisley, Seether

Favourite Books

Harry Potter Series..... that about does it right now

Favourite Writers

Meh...

Favourite Games

Tetris, Tony Hawk, Guitar Hero

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2 $ N64

Tools of the Trade

Pencil, Paper, and a little bit of cynicism

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Selling Cellys

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loveless-lost

Jan 17, 2013

Not that anyone keeps up with these BUT......

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Since I don't log in near as often as I rightfully should, my personal life looks like a bit of a mess right? Update: Courtland= ahole with too many problems to count, BREAKUP, DIVORCE. ONE MONTH CRAZY SPREE THAT INCLUDED RIDICULOUS AMOUNTS OF DRINKING AND BLACKOUTS .......... I met Philip EXACTLY one month from the day I left Courtland. Ever since that day (the day I left Court) I have been a completely different person. For one thing, I'm confident and sassy. 2 things I never was before, so poor Philip when I met him had his hands FULL. It was a whirlwind romance from day one... we fell completely head over heels in love with one anoth

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loveless-lost

Apr 21, 2012

Brand New Life

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You know, I really need to do these journals more often. Lets just say, life is different! More to come!! Deviously Deviant, =:[helena]:=

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loveless-lost

Nov 6, 2009

WOW

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Ok, so latest update said that I wasn't engaged so that was seriously over a year ago; my fiance and I broke up and I was dating random guy a. then quickly realized the real love of my life was my current ex, so then i transitioned back as swiftly as I left, we resumed our engagement and have been happily married since January 16th, 2009. His name is Courtland Monks. I am currently working for Centennial Wireless, a "mom and pop" company being bought out by "the man" and sold off in parts as if we were nothing but asset-property. Which in corporate america, everything is considered property it just sucks because our poor customers have been